I’m so upset. He was the funniest man alive. RIP Robin Williams. </3

I’m so upset. He was the funniest man alive. RIP Robin Williams. </3

Another Sick day

Another sick day.  I had a flare up that ended up keeping me up all night.  I’ve been under a lot of stress lately so I’m sure that hasn’t helped me.  I was doing fine and now all of a sudden I feel sick again.  I can’t tell you how annoying that is.  Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever feel better. 

My doctor has me on pentasa which has gotten rid of the spasms but I still having burning pain in my stomach at times.  Also I’ve been experiencing a lot of nausea.  I have an appointment coming up soon but I’m nervous about calling out I don’t want to make my bosses mad or anything.  It definitely is a worry but I still trying to learn how to manage this disease.  

Looking up

Things are starting to look up.  I’m starting to feel like the old me…pentasa is magical.  Of course I’m not 100% there but I’m getting better day by day.  Last night I was out for a while and for me that’s a big deal.  I feel much more confident about going out now.  My diet has stayed the same…chicken and sweet potatoes.  I eat sweet potatoes everyday…they are very good so it’s a plus.  Now the next step is to starting working out!

#CrohnsSupport

I don’t know if it’s just me but I feel alone.

I know I have the support of my friends, family, and fiance but I still feel alone.  This disease can be mentally draining at times and other times it’s not even that bad.  For 14 years I have been dealing with something that I didn’t even know I had.  I was always told it was an upset stomach or that my diet needed to change.  Yet no matter what I ate or drank I still felt like I was having a hard time.  I wasn’t until I was in my early 20s that they told me I had IBS.  To be honest, IBS is a lame excuse for a diagnosis.  I knew it was something more.  It was not until the past couple years where I literally could not leave my house or function properly due to my symptoms.  I was cornered by symptoms and was forced to have a doctor look into this further. 

I went for a procedure and was diagnosed a week later with crohn’s.  I found out I cried.  I kept asking questions like why me?  Why now?  Why did no one find this out earlier? 

I’m stressed out and I feel alone.  I’m planning my wedding, looking for apartments, dealing with stress at work, and this disease isn’t making anything easier.

get-fit-and-lose:

thereisnoimpossible:

so.. this is just a friendly reminder that YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, and special, unique, strong enough to beat anything, important, gorgeous, unstoppable, amazing loved, needed, you are worth it, you are here for a reason and you’ve got a purpose :) and i love you, and believe in you :)

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get-fit-and-lose:

thereisnoimpossible:

so.. this is just a friendly reminder that YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, and special, unique, strong enough to beat anything, important, gorgeous, unstoppable, amazing loved, needed, you are worth it, you are here for a reason and you’ve got a purpose :) and i love you, and believe in you :)

Follow for health and fitness :)

My doctor says one thing…the pill bottle says another…UGH!!