Another sick day. I had a flare up that ended up keeping me up all night. I’ve been under a lot of stress lately so I’m sure that hasn’t helped me. I was doing fine and now all of a sudden I feel sick again. I can’t tell you how annoying that is. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever feel better.
My doctor has me on pentasa which has gotten rid of the spasms but I still having burning pain in my stomach at times. Also I’ve been experiencing a lot of nausea. I have an appointment coming up soon but I’m nervous about calling out I don’t want to make my bosses mad or anything. It definitely is a worry but I still trying to learn how to manage this disease.
Things are starting to look up. I’m starting to feel like the old me…pentasa is magical. Of course I’m not 100% there but I’m getting better day by day. Last night I was out for a while and for me that’s a big deal. I feel much more confident about going out now. My diet has stayed the same…chicken and sweet potatoes. I eat sweet potatoes everyday…they are very good so it’s a plus. Now the next step is to starting working out!
I don’t know if it’s just me but I feel alone.
I know I have the support of my friends, family, and fiance but I still feel alone. This disease can be mentally draining at times and other times it’s not even that bad. For 14 years I have been dealing with something that I didn’t even know I had. I was always told it was an upset stomach or that my diet needed to change. Yet no matter what I ate or drank I still felt like I was having a hard time. I wasn’t until I was in my early 20s that they told me I had IBS. To be honest, IBS is a lame excuse for a diagnosis. I knew it was something more. It was not until the past couple years where I literally could not leave my house or function properly due to my symptoms. I was cornered by symptoms and was forced to have a doctor look into this further.
I went for a procedure and was diagnosed a week later with crohn’s. I found out I cried. I kept asking questions like why me? Why now? Why did no one find this out earlier?
I’m stressed out and I feel alone. I’m planning my wedding, looking for apartments, dealing with stress at work, and this disease isn’t making anything easier.
My doctor says one thing…the pill bottle says another…UGH!!